He is Molding Me

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Peace and Blessings,
Lacey

The Life of a Poor College Graduate

So I have been subbing a lot lately in the Birdville ISD! Next friday I will see how much. (payday)
I start subbing in HEB in a week! And I am still working at the dance store.
God has blessed me with some amazing opportunities that I will write about once I tell all my family (it's a big deal)!!!
Hopefully I'll update next week with the news :)

JAY-OHH-BEE

As the summer ended so did my job.
The job that I loved! The one I complained about, but still enjoyed the majority of every second.
That one with the 3 kids that drained my energy week after week.
Yeah, that Nanny one.
Well, the children went to school and I went on panic mode.

The first week of unemployment was fine. It was like a vacation, plus the parents were coming into town for a day and then we drove the sister to college, so it was no big deal having that week off. The second week I was bored out of my mind! I had cleaned everything, watched the DVR, read books, did laundry, painted, donated blood, worked out, and watched 5 complete seasons of Dexter.

I have never felt more lazy.

Then opportunity knocked, so I answered. I am now working at a dance store. It was very overwhelming at first with all the shoe types and brand names, but I believe I am starting to get the hang of it. This is my second week of training. Working everyday has been really nice, but do you want to hear better news?

I got on the substitute list at HEB! (thanks to my Aunt) unfortunately I won't be able to start until their next sub training in a month or so. But for now I work every other day at a fun, relaxed, yet sometimes stressful dance store : )

The Lord has blessed me.

Step One

A few months ago I was fine with being alone.
A few months ago I was in a classroom of 2nd graders who adored me and I adored them.
A few months ago I didn't have a job.
A few months ago I was in college depending on my parents for my income.
A few months ago I was talking my sister out of going to Texas Tech.
A few months ago I was a different person.

Now, I have the desire to be loved by a man.
Now, I no longer see the adorable children I looked forward to teaching.
Now, I am a nanny to 3 beautiful children who wear me out.
Now, I have graduated and am making my own income.
Now, my sister will only be 5 hours away instead of 15.
Now, I want my relationship with Christ to mean more to me than the day before.


It seems crazy to me that the Lord can change my heart in such a short amount of time. He is continuously teaching me new things about myself. The past few sermons I have heard have been about finding what you are passionate about and letting Christ shine through them. God has given you the freedom to be creative, but it is what you do with those gifts that make the difference.

I have an entire list of things I am passionate about.
But the ONE true passion of mine is to be around children and listen to their stories. They have (for the most part) no fears. I long for that childlike faith.

I want to take the first step towards my Saviors plans for me.

"To know the Gospel & not share it with everyone is like having the cure for cancer & not telling the dying. It is a crime." Rick Warren

Nothing like a storm in your heart to wake you up

The closer I get to GRADUATION the more multiple types of emotions flow through my body.
excited worried happy sad grateful scared loved stressed regret uncomfortable peace angry fearful cheerful

My faith is being tested more than ever. Bad news is brought to my attention on a daily basis. It is hard to keep smiling when friends are drowning in fear and sorrow.

My smile stays, because of my students. THEY are the ones who make all of this worth it. I consider what is best for them in every decision I make. 

My faith remains rooted in my Savior.
He is my teacher and I choose to follow where He leads.

Curveball

I need to learn to let go of the things I have no control over. I usually don't have so much stress kept up inside of me, but I feel like I am surrounded by people who do not understand what I am going through. My fellow student teachers have all passed the test. It has been one day, one long day and I am about to lose my mind. I took a nap today, not because I was tired (although that was part of it), but because I needed to turn off my mind and relax. I can't tell you the last time I relaxed.

I am writing this down, so I can get it off my chest. I feel like I am crashing down and I cannot stop it. I feel my God doing the best He can to comfort me and surround me with people who care. I will be forever grateful for that, but I still feel myself backing up into a corner.

I don't want to hear anymore about the economy and zero jobs for teachers. I just want to focus on one day at a time. I need to get passed tomorrow, because my students depend on me to bring all of my personality and joy to the classroom. That is when I feel they learn more, when I want to be there. Last week was rough and I know they could feel my lack of concentration. I don't want this week to be the same.

Lord, bring me new joy in the morning! Let your light shine down!

Unexpected Surprises

My new 2nd graders are great!
No class will ever compare to my amazing 3rd graders, but I was spoiled with them.

In the first month they have tested me, hugged me, and apologized to me.

• One little boy decided it would be OK to do the entire Thriller dance (including sing) during a math lesson.

•  I got on to another boy, because he was not listening and following directions. After school he ran up to me and decided to let me know that he did not want me to be mean and he is sorry for not listening. I continued to tell him that he has yet to see me mean...
• The "Thriller Boy" convinced me that he had to go to the bathroom and it was an emergency (even though he asks to go every minute) I gave in and told him to hurry. He ran to the door, turned around and laughed an evil laugh as he ran out the door...never again will he go to the bathroom during my class.
• "Thriller Boy's" birthday was this week. 

me-"How old are you going to be?"
thriller boy-"8"
me-"wow, you're getting old!"
TB-"I don't wanna be old. Old people die."
me-"oh, well yeah. that is life."
TB-"my Grandma died."
me-"my Grandpa died a couple years ago."
TB-"HA! I win the Grandpa contest!!"
me-"well then I win the Grandma contest...?"
TB-confused/frustrated face
me-"we are even."
TB-"OK"


I never know what the day will bring, which makes me love teaching.