Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Last week was full of mood swings. I was mostly blah on Sunday and part of Monday. I was doing a lot of thinking...more than I should. Mainly because I was sitting in a huge house all by myself trying to do homework, but always found myself looking for a movie on demand. I came across Revolutionary Road, which is super depressing.

It made me start thinking about marriage and how far (to my knowledge) I am from it.
Being a wife is part of me. I can feel it every time I find a new recipe, do a load of laundry, clean the apartment, and even snuggle in bed with a good book or movie. I want to share my life with another being. But not just some other person who happens to smile at me when I am having a weak moment.

He will be a man who sweeps me off my feet with subtle touches of my hand and slight glances from across the room. He will pursue me and then woo me in. He will love Jesus more than me. I will get lost in his eyes and intoxicated off of his smell. He will know who he is and stand firm in his decisions. I will fall in love with him more and more each day.
He will be a complete gentleman.

Forgive me. I just spent the past two days reading a pioneer woman's love story, which was perfect in every single way. It was real, which appealed to me most, because as much as I love a good cheesy love movie, I hate the message in portrays to woman..and I guess males. That is why I absolutely LOVE 500 days of summer! So real.

PW's love for this man was hesitant at first. She had her own life, problems and plans. The last thing she wanted was to be in love with a man after just getting out of (actually not completely done with that boy) a 4 year relationship. But this man was smooth and took the two weeks he knew they would have together and swept her off her feet. He said what he felt when he felt it. No games with this guy. How suave. The only thing I did not like about the story was that she called him her 'savior'. WRONG. They are tools into helping you discover what you were meant to do on this earth, while we glorify His name and wait for Jesus' return.

I have been overwhelmed with all the things I have not thought about with MOVING overseas. Dang. I need to start looking at everything instead of keeping my eyes on sitting by the beach and looking at beautiful Australian boys. I need a job, place to live, visa, bank account, money, a feel of how the government works, a feel of the people, and I need to graduate! Even though it is another year away, it is coming fast! And I have to contact some schools soon to see if they will be hiring next summer or fall...which will be like the 2nd or 3rd term already. Times like these I am thankful for my adventurous professor who seems to have taught everywhere, no joke!
This time in my life leaves me excited, nervous, and hesitant. I need to bathe this in prayer.
UGH! Look at this place. I want this so badly. I do not know why. I have never talked about living abroad, up until a couple of months ago. These feelings are new and I am still trying to process them and put it into words, because some people (cough*dad*cough) want to know what brought this desire on. All I can say is God. This sudden passion to spread the gospel out of my comfort zone scares me, but I feel that this is something that I need to experience.


2010 has been good to me.

January-1st friend wedding/first wedding to be involved
-visited Georgia for a good while cuz Dad lived to be 50!
-discovered I want to be a professional party thrower (Lo and Tay's engagement party)
-Jessica's pregnant! :)

February-Rodeo(as always)
-applied for PDS @ Grapevine-Colleyville school district
-realized that I want to teach abroad.

March-Road trip to Houston to see the Jonas Brothers!
-First level at the Mavs game!
-22nd birthday!
-Puerto Vallarta with Nana! (road in taxi by myself)
-Cousin Jackson was born :)

April-best cousin photo shoot, ever
-mom and libby came to visit
- I got accepted into the GCISD cadre
-one year anniversary of my dear grandpa's death.



through all of this, I have fallen more in love with the Lord. I have found joy in His presence. I strive to glorify God in all that I do.

"Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ."
Philippians 1:27

"..Walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to him, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God." Colossions 1:10